I'm linking up with Jana from Boobies, Babies & a Blog and Christy from My Mad Mind today for my usual Fawk You Friday. Although I am finding very few things to say Fawk You to lately, I'm still going to participate.
- Fawk You to having to go sit at the Doctors Office today. It always takes forever around here, and I truly do hate the wait.
- Fawk You to the floors in my new house for not having any carpeting thanks to the dogs that my Mother-in-Law kept in here after she moved in with Granny. Thanks to those dogs we're going to have to find a way to pay for new carpeting and such. That's money that we just don't have.
- Fawk You to having to tell my Daddy that I'm moving. I haven't told him yet, and I don't want to have to tell him. I don't want to hurt him or hurt his feelings at all or anything.
Thank you, God, for providing us with a new home for our family. I hope and pray that this will be a good thing for us and that it will help us to all get along better as a family.
Thank you to everyone out there in the Blogoverse that has been praying for my family through this time of change for us and who have extended their well wishes for us all! I've made some really great friends through this blog, and have met some truly great ladies and gentlemen (yep, that's you Ian) and I'm so thankful to know you all.
Thank you to my Daddy for letting us stay with you when we needed a place to stay! You've always been there for me when it really counted and I have no doubt that you always will be. I love you, Daddy, even if we don't always see eye to eye.
I would like to thank God for giving me the family that he has given me. I love them so much, and I wouldn't want anything other than them. They make me who I am and marrying Justin and having Aiden and Jagger changed the very fiber of my being and who I am at the core of myself.
Now, I have something else I want to say, because I'm not quite sure what to do about it or how to deal with it. I really, really need some advice so badly about this. Anyone that could possibly help me, offer some advice or words of wisdom would be a God send right now!
My Daddy is very close to Aiden & Jagger. Aiden and my Dad have always been best friends, ever since he was born. They have a wonderful bond and a great relationship. When we lived with my Dad Aiden spent a lot of time with him, as did Jagger. Each evening when my Daddy would get home from work at 5:00 pm Aiden would go into the living room and watch TV with him, they would play games and have an ice cream together. If it was warm out then my Dad would take him out to ride around in his tractor or play T-Ball or Basketball with him or push him on the swings. Aiden and my Dad would eat a bag of popcorn together at around 8:00 pm or 9:00 pm each night and watch Batman, SpongeBob, Scooby Doo or Two Stupid Dogs together.
Jagger is too young to tell me that he misses his Papaw and wants to see him or spend time with him. Aiden is not. Aiden spoke to my Daddy on the phone last night and started crying and asking him to come and pick him up and bring him home. He begged me to take him to my Dad's house last night. He had an hour long melt down begging and crying and screaming and asking for his Papaw after we talked to him on the phone. He calmed down for a bit and then started all over again. In the middle of the second meltdown I ended up calling my Daddy back so Aiden could talk to him, but it didn't stop it at all. It made it worse. He begged both me and my Dad to come to get him. Saying things like "Mommy, please take me to my Papaw's house" or "Papaw, please Papaw! Papaw come get me! Come get me Papaw, Please Papaw, come get me!" and "I want my Papaw! I want Papaw! Take me to Papaw's please, Mommy, please Mommy! Get my Mamaw to take me to my Papaw! I want my Papaw, Please let me see my Papaw!" as well as "Popcorn! I want my Papaw! I want to go eat popcorn with my Papaw, Mommy, Please! I want popcorn! I want popcorn! My Papaw will eat popcorn with me, I want to go eat popcorn at my Papaw's house Mommy, please take me home, please take me to my Papaw's house so I can see Papaw and eat popcorn with my Papaw!" He said all of this while he was crying this sorrowful wale of a cry that just broke me into a million pieces of pain, hurt and Mommy guilt.
He cried for his Papaw a third time right before bed as well. He woke up this morning asking if he could go home and see his Papaw now. I'm taking the boys to the Doctor today, and I'm going to stop by the Post Office to see my Dad. I promised AidenAiden last night though, he kept telling my Dad no when he would say I'll pick you up on Saturday. He would say "No! No, Papaw! No! Don't do that, Papaw! Come pick me up now! Right now, Papaw, come get me right now Papaw, please Papaw, please!" My heart is breaking for my sons, and for my Daddy because I know this hurts them both. I was so upset and so hurt last night that I couldn't even tell my Daddy that Serena gave us her house and that we are moving out of his place.
What do I do? What can I do to help my little boy? If anyone could give me any advice for Aiden or for telling my Dad I would be so appreciative. I'm at my wits end, I don't know what to do here and it's breaking my heart even more. Any suggestion or advice would be so welcome right now!